I Give Up

I'm totally convinced that we are not meant to enjoy our lives. Well I can't say we because I'm not the entire  human race, I'm only one person. With that being said I am totally convinced I'm not meant to enjoy my life. Everything just goes wrong for me, never right. I hate to complain because I know there was somebody out there not fortunate enough to wake up today, and God blessed me and allowed me to wake up. However with me damn near everyday there is something new and my life becomes worse than it was the day before. Recently its been nothing but friendship issues. I think I'm gonna declare my junior year The Breakup of the Friends Year. Everytime I turn around somebody is always cutting me off because they suddenly hate me. Whether if I'm wrong or not, and if I'm wrong I have no problem apologizing to whom ever the person may be. I really wish I wasn't such a social person. I wish I was one of this kids who are always by themselves and never have any friends. I exchange looks with no one and I talk to no one. I just want it to be me by myself all the time, forever. I remember I said one time I'd rather have a professional career opposed to having a social life. I would give ANYTHING to have a professional career instead of a social life. I think then I would feel complete, and finally have a purpose in life. However my life was meant for misery and suffering. Therefore I say #FML (Fuck My Life) more than I have ever done.